blues

been in a really good mood for the past month. things crop up, super busy, schoolwork's dying but ya still happy. thought today will be like best day cos little cousin chloe came back!

and then, i realised i mistook my fyp final deadline. it's 9 april. i thought 31 May. my goodness after one whole year then i realise. wtf have i been doing. i swore i nearly cry. but was at airport carl's junior studying with justin, so didnt. all along fyp was pretty screwed, delays, re-dos, problems, materials out of stock etc. but i thought i still have time so still quite calm. when i knew it today, i was so emo and scared i just wanted to hug justin and cry but ya in public place so haha.

had a good evening with chloe, but guess that's about it. hate it that i cant spend much time with her during her very rare and short stay here. and i have 3 days before my fyp 1st draft deadline alrdy booked for my bridesmaid stuff. that gives me even less time.

i just need to survive through april.brain scolding and hating myself. and my heart is in pain from all the shock. just hope everything will turn out well.