blogs are like so yester-year..now its all facebook and twitter. yet i still like this tiny corner of mine.. not exactly private cos friends can have access to it but yet i wonder how many ppl still reads my blog. haha but it doesnt really matter. writing things out makes me feel better cos i dont know how to say it out at times, or i dont know who to tell.. or when i feel really emo or what, i dun really want to tell my friends and get them all worry over sth that may just be a very small thing.

was looking at all my friends blogs... qin's always a good choice when u are feeling down cos her posts are normally light... interesting.. with lots of photos.. some friends' are more to the emo side. and i really want to know whats hapening to them since it is like so difficult to meet up and when u ask them how are ya? they'll just say 'fine' but u know they are not. so i'm glad at least they pour out what they are feeling on their blogs.

saw someone on facebk asked what happen if someone is one-sided of a relationship... the first thing came to my mind: either wait or giveup. and i jolly well know that deciding between the two is the toughest thing on mind. or rather, sticking to ur decision is hard bcos i'll just keep swaying btwn them. sometimes i wished i was a guy. in a better position to be proactive. and i wished i was bolder. but i cant. and i'll get confused about the whole issue all tgt over time.so instead of worrying about the problem, i'll worry about if the problem really exists... if u know what i mean.

anyway, i was wondering who invented that a week has only 7 days. who set the rule that mon to fri are work/school days. why weekend is shorter than weekdays. why is monday called monday. why is recess week not recess week anymore. hah that day someone said "recess wk has just ended" quite true. i cant really think of the next few days as a sem break bcos out of 7 days i only have 2 pathetic days to study for 4 tests (all rather lost and tuts mostly not done) and 2 projects.. cos the rest of the days are either tuition/cca/project...

12am. another day just ended. being in uni probably trains u well to look at the clock. and many a times, u'll lament over the loss of it. uni has trained me to be noucturnal. 1/2 am is still early. the later u get the more ppl u see on msn. i used to get pissed if i slept less than 7hours. now i'll be utterly grateful if i can get more than 4.

tmr voc. basically camp for juniors of mycca. and guess what . i'll be bringing my com and notes to the chalet. ha. hopefully i'll get productive over the night.

if right now u gave me a choice over him and time,
i'll probably choose time.
bcos i needed time that badly? or i no longer want him?
i dont really know.

nice song:D

Never let you go by Janice

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.
I would sing to you and tell you I won’t
Live my life without you.

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes.
And you know I’d never let you go.

will be busy mugging/catching up these 3 weeks. all the CAs flooding in, tutorials piling up. its time to clear. haha ystd had a rather effective try at MOM tut till 5 am. pleased with myself. :)

ok the whole world is like "literally sick and tired of school" qouted from weiqin. there are like many viruses around at the same time and u pass ur illness to me i pass mine to u. and its nv ending. the no of types of pills i eat for differnt illness are like the no. of colours of m&m ... they just keep alternating. i think i will struck lottery the day i dun totally feel any unwell. haha. top of the list of my fav friends that keep visiting me include flu, sore throat, cough, diarrhoea and headache. i am so looking forward to after week 9. ha.

xinen is like finally bk... today's flight from usa but dont know what time will reach spore. must meet up with them alrdy... so sian to realise i havent meet with the tans for like 3 months since chua left. haha. chua's eclipse and tansihan's chocs from mdm loo still with me! so long ago...

learning the hard way to be less involved in stuff that are strictly voluntary... sometimes just thot i was either quite stupid or blur to always think things are somewhat compulsory... or i'll feel bad if i dont go. but come on, i'm just a member. i chose not to be in com bcos i didnt want to get so busy. so what am I doing now? and seriously i am in yr 2 of a very competitive course in the university full of scholars from india china and SEA in a very very kiasu country. i need to leave time for my studies. and last sem was alrdy a bad experience i promised i will not repeat the same mistake again.

ok time for a shower and i'll be back in my books again.. i'm surprisingly excited about mugging. haha or rather, more excited about the fact that i actually have the mood and time to mug. :D

ok today stayed at home all day. was not feeling well so skipped school which only has 4 hours actually... did my math tutorial so happy i could do it! haha then got distracted on youtube watching the french movie taxi got addicted and continued to taxi 2. haha

then now trying to concnetrate on my circuits tut but realised i got a lot of other things i need to settle... like...

1)reading up on o level biology cos i forgot all about the human eye and the central nervous system and i'm having tuition tmr cos my tutee ca on monday.
2) revise some of the signs and look thru the eng course notes cos tmr i'll be the interpretor...
3) revise my complex numbers cos i need them to do my circuit tuts...
4) learn how to use paint.net (a free prog similar to photoshop) so i can at least hand in some proper poster for astro when needed.
5) study for french for goodness sake the test is next thurs!
6) as usual clear my nv-eding pile of tuts that is snow-balling from the very first day of the semester
7) think of eid ideas if not what do we tok to our mentor about?
8) read up a bit on tech com project cos every week need to do some exercises in class but we nv really know what to write about. mostly crapping haha just that the teacher know less than us so ya we tend to bluff thru easily.
9) OH YA my lab report cos needed some editing after my group met with my oh-so-helpful mentor today

YES can u imagine thats the amount of stuff running thru my mind SIMULTANEOUSLY?!? i simply cant concentrate on doing one task... i need some insulator to block out parts of my mind at any one time. haha

ok whined enough. think faced the com too long having headache. hai i am forever sick i dunoe why!!!! haha

whats wrong with blogger. i'm posting using a very distorted page. lol nvm. ok rather... pissed? emo? haha i dunoe how to describe la. a lot of things running thru.

one of my family friend got involved in a car accident. she was pregnant. her friend was too tired while driving and crashed into dunoe railing or tree. luckily her baby was successfully delivered by Cesarian. but for her, had to use her thigh muscle to 'patch' up her head... the front is quite badly damaged.. safe for now .. thankfully.

i am sure the friend nv meant it. and must be feeling damn guilty right now. but sometimes i think a lot of ppl tend to overestimate themselves and nv really weigh the consequences. i mean almost everyone including u and me. which of u is not guilty of not putting the seat belt on in car even though even a lower sec science student know very well how important it can be when there is an accident. whats more i'm in engineering and yes i do not put on seat belt unless i'm sitting in front.

and we like to complain our parents and teachers are paranoid paranoid. dont do this dont do that. i think sometimes it is the egoism in us. we want to prove that they are wrong they are overly gan jiong. and peer pressure also makes us wanting to prove we are as capable as any of ur peers can be. there is a differnece b/w challenging ur limits and knowing ur limits. and i think most young ppl including me do not really know the difference.

so for my friend's case, maybe the driver wanted to be really nice and send her home. feeling real tired but do not want to sound like giving excuses. so challenged the limits of fatigue. thats what happen. and i guess thats what happen to ruihua too. she was sick but did not want to miss the nafa test and re-doing it another day. unfortunate things then happen.

there are always a lot of flaws in people becos we are human beings. and i learn as i grow and experience. i feel fortunate bcos i have seen unfortuante things happening to ppl. i learn the most important lessons out of the worst things that can happen. how ironic.

was so pissed i wrote sth here but decided to remove. in case the person reads this though i nv mention names but he will jolly well know i am talking about him. lol. ya but its just about treasuring what u have

ok enough of this weird post that sounds so much like a GP essay. haha.

thot for the day: live each day like its ur last. and treasure all that u have, be it just a piece of bread or an ipod touch. we can have different standards of living, different financial / social bkgrd, but we all should really hold the same attitude: to cherish.

just finished the theory part of lab report. thats the shared part. my own part's calculations and findings not done yet. shit.hate it when i'm the only gal there. and hate myself for blurting out that i took thermo b4. hate myself even more for the lack of courage to protest when the bulk of the report is thrown at me to do. 2 cn yang scholars in the grp whats the use.

week 4 only and i feel really screwed up. academically bcos i am nv in pace with the lectures. always 1 week behind and there is never a tutorial i fully complete b4 the tcher goes thru. physically also becos there's this constant giddyness and throbbing headache that is killing me these few days. ystd so bad that i decided to stay home. regret though cos there goes my 1 chapter of french.

today specially chose not to wear tshirt but hey he was not there. lol. feel so stupid. haha. oh and teresa wished me happy belatedteacher's day. brighten up my long day. :)

tmr shall go school earlier do some reading on tech comm. haha countdown: less than 5 hours to waking up aagin. good night!