u-turns

i'm still thinking about that random dream. it's just a dream but i was thinking if it was real, what would i do? lol before that when he was not a thing of the past, comments i heard were 'immature' 'too childish for u' from my mum. but now that it was supposed to be past, then i was told he's 'nice family man' 'good guy as husband' etc. untimely ya? haha at first it doesn't really bother me what other says cos it matters most how i feel. but now i'm a bit scared the feeling will come bk... haiz. and seeing him rather frequently recently doesn't help.

but i guess these kind of things... can't do much on my side cos what must happen will happen. hah most impt thing to me is that at the end of the day, he's still one of my best friends :)