before the holiday

skipped school today cos need to pack stuff and going to miss aerody lect anyway in order to reach home in time. will be off to genting at 1030 tonight :) really excited but worried too. lol

surprising to most ppl, this is the first time i'm going to genting. haha and also surprising to some, this is the first time i'm on a holiday with my parents and sis. the previous times i went with friends or cousins.. so of course i'm super excited. i've drawn up a list of things to pack to guide my super last-min sis and my hyperly paranoid and gan jiong mum.. haha i made a tiny passport for my teddy bear who will be on his first overseas trip! childish ~~~ yeah but who cares?! haha! holidays are meant to be fun :D

yet on the other hand, i'm a bit worried. one reason why my family nv go on trip before is the high probability that my parents will quarrel half way thru the trip. cant rmb when was the last time they were on good terms for more than 3 days. hais. and surprising or not, my parents nv share room since i had memories and this time they are going to at genting. well, i've made them promise me no quarrels, more giving in to each other but things often dont just go as we wished rite.. just hoping for the best and i'm really looking forward a really harmonious and happy trip.

side note from genting, farrago gonna have their first frupper hop tmr night! and i cant join !:( frupper hop = farrago supper hop.. and its gonna end in overnight mahjong session at shihui house. hai. and i didnt know this was in the planning until now. guess it shows how long i've been absent from my cca. yup i nv sign on but haven't been helping out like other seniors did. not only do i feel guilty towards my juniors, but also guilty towards myself. i've given up one of the best things i ever done in ntu (thats joining RSPHI) in an attempt for more time for my studies. and recently i've realised that i actually do have time for academics. now that i am not going for cca i just have more time but nothing's done! its the whole attitude that i'm having thats causing the problem and so far it hasn't work for me tying to overcome it. hais. and having one less productve and meaningful avenue to spend my time just transform me into a bigger bum ever. so now every time i realise i cant attend this attend that for my cca, i will feel really regretful. :(

alrights no time to sigh. gonna look thru my biz fin notes cos quiz on monday i wont be back in spore til sun night. oops! haha! then goodbye to spore and hello genting! this trip is definitely not well-deserved, but very much needed. i hope i'll find a whole new surge of energy and motivation after coming back from the highlands! :D