BAD MOOD

i merely slacked last week and didn't file my notes nicely. now my whole desk looks like a rubbish dump. and i am utterly frustrated by the untidiness of both my desk and wardrobe. got more irritated everytime i try to find some piece of clothing to wear only to end up turning the whole wardrobe inside out and sometimes, still not find it. and my house is v noisy now with my mum slamming doors everywhere and we shouting at each other. dont ask why we quarrel. i also cant rmb how it started. and the endless tuts to complete is not helping. having just done my part for eid poster and cfd report but only to realise theres still aerody wiki and mb102 presentation to do before i can touch onmy tuts just kills me. and i had to skip the ktv session later for the sake of my future. sorry not future, just academics.

ystd watched valentine's day with jas and qin. quite nice show and is really quite funny. but that's bcos i watched it with the correct mindset: it is a show. the love stories inside have happy endings as usual. sadly, it just reminds me thats not the reality. i grew up witnessing the divorce of 3 aunt/uncles out of 7 married ones in my family, involving extramaritial affairs, negligence and money issues of course. and watched dramas with happy endings and glamorous love stories only to see ugly stories on newspapers. thats drama vs reality. and having stupid crushes on ppl who never understood my hints or never care if they are sending misleading signals, just reminds me how difficult it is to find the correct one if they ever exist.

okay thats a whole lot of ranting. just pure bad mood today. RARAHHHHHHHHHHHH!