woah. finally some time for blogging. shall spend the last few min b4 my med knocks me out to vent some views.. haha

just finish eid draft outline. we had meeting today, decided on the product and everyone had so many constructive ideas and comments to add on.. then when the question comes, who do the outline? everyone kept quiet. some of us are busy la like wen hao he has 3 proposals to rush out... but others leh? even when yewei sort of appointed 2 other ppl to be in charge there wasn't a positive reply. come on, everyone is busy have tests tutorials needs sleep etc etc. helping out once for ur group wouldn't die. thats the reason why i in the end volunteer.definitely NOT bcos i think i was the free-est among them. jas was saying i self-torture myself. haha but i just cant stand it to see the whole meeting drag on to no conclusion. sometimes guys are more wishy washy than gals. look at my tech com group. Efficient and effective! why can't it be the same?haiz...

and i did quite a major decision ystd. major maybe only to me la. i decided NOT to continue RSPHI mycca nxt yr. seriously i had thought of continuing all the way till i graduate like how some of my seniors did. u really do not know how this cca has affected me.in the good way of course.last time i was just like the majority of my peers, want to do volunteer work occasionally yet sometimes when ppl say aiya u so good-hearted ah, there will be this sub-conscious slight embarrassment.. like afraid ppl may be thinking u faking it or trying too hard. haha but now i am nv shy to share my experience, proud to share my knowledge about the deaf, dare to speak up and eager to clear misconceptions ppl have about the hearing impaired. and the joy of helping someone.... undescribable. i have nv enjoyed a cca so much. last time was just come take attendance do what i am suppose to finish then go home. on the other hand, i have nv been so busy in my life b4. rsphi = 10AUs. haha seriously. and i am not even in the main comm.

so back to why i decided not to continue... i must have realise thru the hard way this sem how difficult it is to catch up with ur studies while being so busy. so far i think i've done ok for my CAs thankfully, but not bcos i'm gifted genius (like geek and sick always joke haha) or neither did i pay attention to what the lecturer says... but i sacrifice really a lot of my personal and sleep time (and unevitably my health) to mug. really mug. cos the normal free time i have is filled up with cca cca tuition tuiiton cca cca. i enjoy doing them but definitely do not enjoy the consequence (i.e. lack of time ). u cant have best of both worlds, and i have chose gpa over cca. haha what a freak decision. yes. haha but i hope i wont regret it.

ok time for sleep. so glad tmr decide to pon schl. getting out of ur cosy bed in the wee hours with a heavy head and stuffy nose is the worst way to start off a long day. haha and i'm really excited to be able to sleep in tmr!! good nite!