exams are finally over over over. having a bad headache now. haha guess i've been watching too much online videos.

there are now so many things on my to-do list. but i cant seem to do things i want to, cant make myself start on things i should be doing, cant find ways to do what i wish to do. :(

the world is so complicated. i didnt want it to be this way.

and i am so irritated for having forgetten 3 april bday babies during my mugging period.. ah!!! :(

got thru another horrible night just b4 aero mat paper. worse than the previous one. maybe only u knew what happened. or maybe not everything. but anyway, now back at home. place of warmth, home-cooked food. distractions like tv internet... but can bee seen as forms of destressing. i certainly need that. so guess i am psychologically more at ease here at home. and i am really thankful for these few days where i can prepared for thermo. althought not that its really enough for one whole sem of work.

tmr my cca ppl going for free used books sale at nat lib, then ktv then dinner. how i wish i could join them. haha but i guess i had enough lessons to tell me i should stay at home and mug :D

watched a documentary on a woman who sells famous fishballs in hk. at the busiest point in her life, she worked 20 hours a day to manually make and sell those fishballs, leaving with only 4 hours at home to take care of her 4 kids, give them tuition, do household chores while her husband is happily drunk everyday. she braved thru and grew to be the strong person now. i've got tons to learn from her.

9 days from now i will be free. 2 more papers. i swear i'll nv take 5 cores at a go anymore. just want it to be over. dun want to think about the gpa. i am not expecting too high cos i know how unprepared i am for like everything except maybe math. but i'm not expecting too low cos if after moderation better than i expected then ppl will aiya u say difficult then got so high. expectations is drowning me. expectations from myself and others. its easy to tease ppl .but sometimes u really dun know how much stress that few words add on to the person. i was so close to giving up on sat night. magnetism and electricity wasn't going in at all. i thought i'll breakdown. never ever was i so tense with exams. i thought my blodd vessel will burst in an instant. but yeah i survived that night. so i'll survive.

i promise i'll not do what i did this sem.never again.

sleeping on a rock-hard bed in a stuffy room on a hot humid day. nv would i long for it so much than now.

back to aero mat.

haha just posted on the wrong blog. apparently i used the old username to sign in and my old blog actually existed. haha!

anyway was saying... it's the first week of exams. guess i've been lazy/distracted/busy this sem. can't seem to prepare enough for the papers. feeling real nervous now. but shall not lament over the lack of time. need to face the music. back in hall away from the comfort and distractions at home. and i can't care anymore about the growing double chin. let me survive this month first.

whitney houston. theraputic voice.