a million things

there are a million things ongoing in my head. and i can't seem to sort them out or get them done. i need to read up on all my modules because i dont understand a single thing so far. i need to do my aircraft design project but i dont know what the shit is going on and the whole team is stuck because i cant get my part done. i need to look thru the recruitment talks up coming, decide which to sign up for, need to buy formal clothes and do up resume to go for networking sessions. i need to realise what i want to do upon graduation and decide what i need to prepare for that job/interview in this year. i need to do my fyp and time is running out and there are software to learn, readings to do, labwork to chiong. i need to spend time with justin even though i see him almost everyday because studying and dating is different and its essential to stabilise our r/s. i need to think of what to get for him for our coming anniversary. i need to buy stuff i need to buy / want to buy and differentiating which is which and how much money i have. i need to save up money for grad trip and i need to think where i want to go for grad trip and starting planning cos air tix is getting more expensive nearer the date. i need to spend time with my family too esp my sis who is flying bk to uk for one year soon. i need to lose weight because i want to look great in mar for my cousin wedding and in june for my convo. i need to take care of my body, rmbing when to put mask, moisturer, eat vitamins, put my whitening retainer before all the super expensive whitening essence dries up. i need to eat healthier and  exercise because people ard me are getting cancer or dead from cancer and its really scary. even showering is a chore because i keep have to consciously remind myself to put conditioner which i keep forgetting and the next morning i wake up bad hair that spoils my day. i need to remain happy and positive every day because foul mood can just stir up quarrels over tiny little things with my mum or even justin. i need to sleep earlier because i get tired waking up 5 am most of the days and i am falling aslp in lectures and my dark eye rings are getting darker.

ok i need a breather.

back to ae4011 :(