direction

i know this is going to sound morbid.. haha be sure it's not an inclination of depression.. but i was thinking, if i'm going to die tmr, what have i done in my life worth rmbing?

my sis is starting to settle her stuff, finally got her accommodation confirmation today, ready to embark on her discovering journey soon. the proudest thing i've done is score 10 A1s for o level. which is a rather sad thing to be proud of. i mean, academics? come on! there's more to life than books!

i need to do sth for myself. worth rmbing. sth for me to be proud of myself. jobs are just activities u do in exchange for money. a career is sth diff. studying is just in exchange for a cert to accredit u sth. a talent allowed to develop or a skill learnt is diff. i need a direction.

and while still searching for it, tmr's going to be last of week 1. so far so good. getting tired. but i can feel myself a little more orientated this time :)

where were the days i used to be able to sleep anytime anywhere?