MOMMY, ITS OVER!

yeah!! exams FINALLY over! this exam period has been a real torture: with 4 papers in a row clogged all at the end, amazingly depressing modules & my erm.. haha lack of the correct learning attitude. I'm just so glad it's really over i was singing the moment i stepped out of the exam hall.. haha! great company today for lunch, movie and dinner! tmr's super packed : tuition in morning, lunch with jaeldongbiao, cca in afternoon, thong's party at night :D

i have a super long list of to-dos:
1) apply bursary
2) settle canada stuff which includes waiting for the official acceptance letter, packing lists and things like accomodation, books, flights etc
3) housekeeping: wardrobe, notes, desk, cupboard all in a great mess!
4) get organised (i) music (ii) photos (include those hardcopy ones b4 the era of digital cam)
5) get rid of my textbooks the appropriate way
6) blog! my new blog is nowhere near completion but now finally got time to slowly do w/o guilt :D
7) watch a lot of videos and videos and videos...
8) exercise !
9) work towards my direction in life.. haha this is the most important but most difficult task

10) learn baking form xinen! :)
11) meet up and meet up with friends
thats about all for now... more to come :)

hope i'll get a job soon. next week still got EID fair but nah it's much better than aerody or math. haha. alrights!

erm about the reflection post i mentioned ytsd. was thinking about the depressing time i went thru this exam period. rmb the 9/10 test i mentioned? haha that was an online test for signs of clinical depression. the 1 question i replied NO was whether i am sucidal... lol. but ya since the start of this week, i had been in pretty good mood despite all the 'WOW' papers.. guessed i did correct on last sun to not study and really think hard about my own direction in life. was researching on possible careers with my degree (other than aero industry), the required additional training.. and i realised the course fees for being an offical wedding planner :$9k+++! omg. haha went whole big round then clicked on the police force website. haha my old ambition. somehow deep inside i still have a passion for it... but my lack of confidence over my abilities had overshadowed my passion for it. and i do not like that. i'm going to work on buffing up my stamina & be more discplined. afterall if i still dont become a police officer in the end there's no harm rite?

also on sun,wanted to find sth to cheer myself up and look up travelling, photography and drawing stuff... and i realised that i keep complaining about doing stuff i dont like.. but the ultimate way to achieve what i want to do undeniably involves doing stuff i dont like. E.g. i really wish for a DSLR and next time wanna travel at least once every 2 years each for leisure and for overseas voluntary expeditions... but in the first place i need money! so even if i had to endure a engineering job that i dont like, i'll still have to do it.

so conclusion: i need to find my true career interest but meanwhile, even if it takes till after N yrs of working, i will need to put up with the undesired to achieve all my other interests and passion. what i just wrote may sound stupid like.. DUH COMMON SENSE. but actually no, some things are so common sense u think u knew it but u have yet to truly comprehend the ultimate meaning all behind it.

okay i feel like i just had a huge burden off my mind and heart. my greatest goal for the future: be happy! not that i'm not happy now lol,i just dont want the emo side of me to visit me so frequently again .. haha ok time for drama! :)