DILLEMAS

i hate dillemas. and i hate it when ppl ard me (esp my mum) is not supportive of what i amdoing /want to do. and i'm not like my sis. u disapprove, she will still do it and hope someday u will support her. but i dont ever do that. i dont want to go against other ppl's wishes, making them unhappy BUT all the more i dont want to go against MY OWN wishes, which i normally compromise in the end anyway.

so what if i get a spot in instep? when my mum is like so reluctant to let me go. hinting me here and there no money no money no money. okay i have money but once i go it will be totally emptied and then i'll need to borrow my dad's cpf funds to repay my loan for tuition fees. haiya its just so frustrating AND the very troublesome process of application and the unfriendliness of most host uni websites just makes everything worse.

at some moments in time i will just, aiya dont go la. but my dream of going bristol was gone so i came to NTU with 2 big goals in mind: learn french and go on exchange. i did the first and i dont want to let myself down.

okay enough whining. need to research more clearly about the host uni before making the sacred choice on thurs. haha