NOT ME-

just a few mins ago, i officially forfeited 15% of one of my modules because i nv hand in ANYTHING for my CA assignment. "huh? sure not? u must be bluffing? i dun believe.." well this is perhaps the most daring thing i've ever done to my studies in all my 20 yrs .. like... ok i am super guai student in primary school... then by some luck one of the top students in sec schl and i didn't fare badly in jc... just that in uni, there is lack of self discipline on my part and overwhelming of non academic stuff like cca, tuition and fatigue from travelling from east to west everyday.. i'm just getting a bit NOT ME. haha i am stressed but its not the RARRH BOOM erruption kind. its hidden inside of me, releasing a little by a little...

ok maybe some of ya dont know me that well. but if u ask any of my sec school friends.. "jingru hand in a blank for her CA thats like 15%?" oh ya and not forgetting i actually wrote "sorry i really dont know how to do" on another module's CA paper. haha i can guarantee NO ONE will ever believe that. trust me. they must be thinking i must be crazy or sick.

well i hope i am not. but i am kind of relieved the deadline is past. whats done cannot be undone and i dont need to hang on to that tiny thread of hope that a miracle can happen when i am suddenly enlightened on how to do matlab. its really not that i want to give up. its not i gave up w/o trying. i gave up precisely bcos i tried. i really dont know how to do and even if i want to edit my senior's copy and hand in, i dont even know how to edit. its like some ppl can NEVER visualise 3D surfaces/diagrams for certain math questions or some ppl just cant get permutations and combinations right. its just BLANK. into my face. helpless.i dont know how to say.

ok its over yes its over. i alrdy thot of what to reply to my prof if he email to ask about it. haha

today is a v v v plain day at school nothing eventful. i was dead tired having only 3 hours of sleep but i managed to stay awake in MOM. i was neither in a v good or v bad mood. i had my french oral. laughed my fair share with friends. studied my fair share for revision. hmmm. not a bad day.

and now an early night.. 6 hours of sleep:)

tomorrow is another day.