envious. its just a nicer way of saying jealous. they mean the same. haha.

i hate the feeling of being envious about what ppl are doing... yet i won't choose to do it when i can because i am a coward. yes, scared of this worried about that. excuses. i think i can churn out excuses for myself as well as how cars are churning out greenhouse gases worldwide. wish i could shut my mind up outside sleeping hours.

rarrh!!!!!!!!!!!