life is about

inconsistency
-hate the clumsiness in me, but hate even more the once-in-a-while skillfulness.

paradox
-dislike crowds. dislike being alone. just love being all by myself inside a crowd.

rebellion
-nobody really stick by the rules. and you lose out being too obedient.

responsibility
- those that you chose to take up. along with some unexpected ones you can't handle.

choice
-you made one, you gave up something.

dreams
-they remain as dreams. some things are just too good to be true.

commitment
-it's not about you being there. it's the heart.

juggling
-and i can't really do it.

appearance
-impression, looks, public relations.

regrets
-we treasure only after we lost it.

winning
-and losing.

satisfaction
-maybe just from a good night's sleep. or a hearty meal.

reminiscence
-if only(s)....

learning
- from mistakes, about new things...

existence
-we all live to be someone needed by others. like a doctor needed by his patients. or a mother needed by her child.

i'm so tired from tennis now. going to take a nap:)