wow almost 2 weeks nv blog. today feels like a sunday. back at hall now. just finished a nice cup of milo and meiji crackers as supper. haha tmr there's farrago meeting again... hopefully can settle the proposal once and for all by wed. i seriously need to start revision.i dun want to be repeat what happened during the 1st major exam in jc when i flopped it. lol. it's time to wake up before the harsh reality comes crashing on me in the most unfriendly way. regret is probably the last word i ever want to experience. have regretted enough. why didn't i study physics in jc. or the other way, why did i chose engineering. okay yes i need to really study. halfway through the serial "heart of greed: moonlight resonance". addicted yes i am. but from this very moment onwards i promise i am going to just watch 1 episode per day. strictly 40 min. *hook the little pinkies with myself* :)

it's been 10 days 1 hour and 54 mins.
i'm still waiting.

kind of tired. not physically. my eyes are still wide awake. mentally i guess. and i have a slight headache perhaps from staring at the com too long. my com is slowing down... was trying to clear unnecessary stuff but apparently u need to be IT savvy in order to know what can be deleted and what can't.

these few days hearing reminders from friends... yes exams are only less than 4 weeks away and i have not started on any of my revision. to be exact, lectures are still on going and tutorials always need to be done so if i try to absorb the new stuff, i can't start off my revision. Rarrh. last exam was near to a year ago. a major exam that we had so much mental preparation like prelims etc. an exam that i mugged hard because the whole world tells me a level is the worst hurdle u have to cross and uni is easy. YA I'M SURE. engine doesn't have projects and projects but it is still tough for me without a level physics and the stress is there to really do well when the industry out there is very very small and u need to excel among the other scholars and elites hidden in the same course.

so what i have got on my to-do list. YES REVISION. BUT that is preceded by computing tutorial, physics tutorial, material science tutorial, econs quiz coming up on next tue, lab report, aero assignment... and tutorials are going to pile on as the weeks goes by...

just feel like sleeping through 1 whole week. at least i can skip one cycle of my mundane routine life. skip : one whole week of tutorials. one week of tuition. and one week of food. i might be able to lose some pounds.

tmr HTHT cancelled again. can't help when schedules clash. and for class outing i am suppose to check if the gals are free on 20th dec for BBQ. i dun even know if TMR i have any impromptu meeting or what lo. lol.

I am fat and I want to eat.
I am not tired but I want to sleep.
I wished I was busy but I don't want to be busy.
I like you but I want to forget you.

OXYMORON.

back at pulau ntu alrdy. this friday gonna have a RSAF AEO talk starting at 630pm which means i will get home veyr late which means its a long week ahead on the west side of the island. anyway,RSAF AEO means Republic of Singapore Air Force Air Engineering Officer. lol. maybe i am the only female species that signed up for it. i think influence form my sis. not that i didnt hear enough bad things from NS friends nor i have the calling to serve the nation or whatsoeva nor i think i am fit enough to complete the 10 weeks officer cadet course. but basically just to keep my options and for 1) practical reasons: rather high paying job and i can try apply for local study award to waive my tuition fees. 2) i still have that attraction towards a uniformed career. although obviously SPF is still no.1 as compared to SAF. haha

ok. was reading blogs. realise everyone seems to have some excitment in their life. or at least they sound happening. like supper at JB, hall activities, night cycling, carrying out their hobbies like baking.... for me, go lectures, do my tutorials, do my laundry, rush cca proposal, wait for weekends to come, spend my weekend by tuitioning and the whole process repeat itself. i am glad for the lack of projects and lack of distractions from hall activities and not being too busy, but sometimes, quite sian with a everyday routine life. haha well, life is nv perfect and Man is nv satisfied.

tmr got sign lang test. must get at least 75% to pass and if u fail twice, need topay full cost of $70++ of the sign lang course. so gonna mug tonight and tmr after lessons.... good luck to me. :)

hope the guys are doing fine in NS. haha hope vincent feels better within his so-called 'living hell' and hope thong is coping with the restart of his BMT life. :)

change? for the better or for the worse?
maybe it's better to let everything remain as per now.

this week is so much better than last week. not that this week was exactly very perfect but last week was so bad so in comparison.... haha being rather happy these few days. for being productive. like i finished all my tutorials for this week so far... cleaned the floor, did my laundry, sort and file all my notes, last session of tuition for teresa was over, computing CA1 was back and i got an A! :) but there were also little hiccups like i had 5 mosquito bites and i still see it flying ard in the room but cant catch it; and i have a rather terrible outbreak on my face... hehe but still feeling good....

maybe shall have an early night today... to reward myself. haha.

maybe i am happy because of you. :)

Look at me now
Will I ever learn
I don't know how
But I suddenly lose control
There's a fire within my soul.
Just one look and I can hear a bell ring
One more look and I forget everything

Mamma mia, here I go again
My my, how can I resist you?
Mamma mia, does it show again
My My, just how much I've missed you?

Yes, I've been broken-hearted
Blue since the day we parted
Why, why did I ever let you go?
Mamma mia, now I really know
My my, I should not have let you go

went to watch mama mia and the house bunny ystd. haha once with vincent and thong on afternoon and the other with vincent and teresa at night. mama mia was fantastic to me... but the house bunny.... well okay if u want just for laughs. only joke i took away from the show was... "your eyes are the nipples of your face.." eh ya that kind of jokes throughout the show . but rather interesting how drastic the makeovers of the characters was.... maybe i need one. haha oh back to mama mia, loved the songs! Mama mia, dancing queen, honey honey, SOS (though pierce brosnan voice is average only), lay all your love on me, the winner takes it all..... haha and meryl steep wonderful actress wonderful voice. now i know why thong doesnt mind watching it a second time.... Me too!!! if i cant control myself, i may watch it again next weekend! =)

still at home now. tmr after tuition teresa then go back ntu. will be ponning lessons but no choice cos her exam on tue and wed. good luck yo! =) have done some tutorials just now. still got outstanding ones. planned to finish HI proposal first cos tmr got meeting but apparently hotmail has some problems.... cant open email. sian. hai. its always not easy as a leader. glad i am just a small i/c.

finally got it off my chest. outcome wasn't what i expected. fortunately. not a yes but at least not a no. yeah. one step at a time.

One of my fav song inside..

Don't go wasting your emotion
Lay all your love on me
Don't go sharing your devotion
Lay all your love on me