the beautiful flyer i didn't get to sit on... haha and it was only 10 bucks for students!!!
was supposed to meet wei feli and ybin for the ride... but woke up feeling super wrong... head heavy and super drowsy... prob from the flu medi i ate ystd nite... so decided not to go. :( so now i am stuck at home... i need to get well by tmr!!i dun want to miss the dinner too...

tired. very. lets see what i'm done these few days. hmm quite fruitful. finally not bored. haha

sat: went sentosa right in the morning. beach volleyball cum football. haha then lunch then rushed back to tanah merah for tennis with sam ken and ray. then some fighting wii game at ken's house which seriously i cannot even find my own character amidst the chaos on the screen. LOL. then had dinner with mum and dad at Giant tamp. bought a standing fan. A MUST in the house with these killing weather....

sun: i cannot rmb what i did. lol.

mon: yes i went dentist finally. dr ronald tan was rather nice. those typical like-to-talk-a-lot kind of dentist. he's a specialist then sounds very experienced. so i hope all will go well... haha but very EX wor. i think add up all the way from x-ray , extractions, braces and retainers... need ard 6k.. :( there goes my hard earned money from last yr's KPMG job. haha

tue: cut hair. tuition. then farrago session at shihui house. omg i was half dead when i reached yio chu kang only to find out i will be dancing for the next few hours! lol. and my hands and legs cannot coordinate but yep i am going to perform in front of 100 + ppl on this sat. haha in geek wear somemore.

wed: housework housework. then pract dance. went out with hua dong for geek wear shopping... then watch night at muesum 2 for free! haha then went clarke quay forjob interview as waitress at RennThai.

today: housework housework. pract dance again. then 2 hours ride to NTU JUST to submit my bursary application. and the whole library with more than 100 PC (i guess) spoilt!!! either cannot use IE or cannot use thumbdrive or what shit la. in the end had to use librarian's PC to print my docs. then another 2 hours ride back to pasir ris. had lousy dinner at the kopitiam there. back at home housework housework again. only now then sit down at my fav spot-- in front of my lappie:D


ok i need go shower. and sleep pls.

我只有放弃你的倔强
却没有忘记你的力量

guess i am too free. thats why the frequent blogging. haha.

had tuition today. then went for dinner at fish and co with chua and vincent. ate like only half the serving. was partially full. but the amount of oil that oozes out of the fish was the main reason i stopped eating. haha. not so much of health consicous. but the growing fats on my tummy is seriously irritating me. i can imagine how disgusting by literally storing that amt of oil inside my body. yucks. frolick yoghurtwas nice. esp that topping (chua mention the name but i forgot) but i think yami better. more frozen.

a long day ahead tmr. of vball and tennis. of sun sea and sand. i hope i can get up in the morning. haha

i am actually still jealous. lol

just woke up. at 1030am as usual. haha holidays always meant lots of sleep and lazing ard for me.

ystd went to timbre @ old school. like the ambience but not so much of the singers ystd. and guess what.. drank almost 2 glasses of vodka cranberry ... and on my way back i felt so giddy. had to alight at kallang and kembangan respectively becos i had no seats on mrt and i thought i was going to black out. haha ended up sweating quite a bit then finally had a seat and slept all the way from bedok to tamp. lol. i wasn't drunk i guess since i could still make my way bk home safely and sms hd... but that was the worst i have felt from drinking. now at least i know my limits. haha 1 glass is enough :)

yup and back home check my results. predicted most to get B+ so didn't expect much. then first glance like a lot of A- like that, but both physics got only B- so ended up gpa much worse than what i expected.. haha drop a full 0.72 from my last sem. nearly 2 honours class down. few days back just told my senior i'll run for centrehead for my cca. but now decided not to. haha i need to catch bk man.

and after reading chua's blog i realised i've been the typical ppl: had a long list of to-dos b4 exams and when hols come, do not feel the energy /motivation to complete them. so finally i took the phone, rung up the dentist and fix an appointment!! next mon 1230pm. my first dental visit since... sec school? haha! dental-phobic. feel kind of scared/excited/nervous... lol. but i'll have to face whats to come:) there's a price to pay for vainity! haha

just finished 40 ep of heart of greed.常在心ended up tgt with 得得地. thot they would remain best friends. well, who knows what happens tmr? :)

i'll still think of u.
just that the feeling is different.
lighter. sweeter.
not bitter anymore. :)

Starry starry night
paint your palette blue and grey
look out on a summer's day
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul.

Shadows on the hills
sketch the trees and the daffodils
catch the breeze and the winter chills
in colors on the snowy linen land.

And now I understand
what you tried to say to me
how you suffered for your sanity
how you tried to set them free.

They would not listen
they did not know how
perhaps they'll listen now.

i just wrote a msg to a friend. i dun know whats bothering him. but now i know that he is partly troubled by the fact that we are concerned about why he is emo-ing. he really minds how ppl look at him, afraid to share his stuff because he doesn't trust us enough, keep things to himself thinking it was the best solution. but i know that will only go on in viscous cycles. meaning he'll just get more and more emo. haha i guess all this sounds familiar to me becos some yrs ago, i was like him too. perhaps no one knew. but ya, i survived that low period. i really want to help him get pass. but the door of insecurity has shut tight between us. i can only wish u all the best. want to see ur smile and laughter soon. :)

was watching heart of greed with my mum just now. their story... like mine. haha glad i took that decision. at least... i am not regretting so far... :)

back from tioman. short 3D2N trip but seems rather long... as in a lot of things happened. haha

basically we didn't do much on 1st and last day... majority of time spent on travelling... only 2nd day was a full trip out to sea. went snorkelling for the first time. didn't fully exploit the RM90 because couldn't see the corals and fishes clearly without my contacts... and i was slightly sea-sick near the end of trip. had drinks on both night at this bar near our resort. food was okay. company was fun. scenery was great. just didn't expect some things to happen. being too observant and frank may not be the right way to do it. thought i could be more frank when i'm closer to people but.. conclusion: understanding wasn't enough.

tired. trip was fun. but not without a blemish. haha

i feel i should really do it.
but there's a risk that i might regret it fully.
yet if i don't..

some things are just not meant to be
and some people are just meant to be.. friends

from this moment onwards, i know we are going to be best friends forever
and solely best friends.