crap . i was just blogging to comment on how cranky my com and hp is. and it just hanged. lol. i am not re-typing everything. haha

looking forward to wed. end of exams. :)

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you till I die
Till we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

maybe there is no right or wrong in this world. nobody really cares if you have been wrongfully slapped. when a misunderstanding causes another, no one wants to be responsible. and the best way to resolve as most will conclude is to treat it as it has never happened before.

maybe i am used to it.

little dream wrapped with a layer of glamourious huge ambition.
psuedo.

Favourite song now:)

You talk to me
You speak with me
Don't sink before you rise baby
Don't fade away

You hesitate
You seem to wait
For all the time we had
Feels like a world away

Who's to say, we'll be ok
We will make it through the night
Don't wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

Cause we're the same
And i know that we'll never change
Look i bought your favourite ice cream
I dont wanna see it melt away

If you walk out now
I don't know if we're gonna be the same
Baby just talk with me
Cause i want you to stay here with me

today was first exam in uni! but what a weird place to have exams... nanyang audi FOYER. lol. i think i should fair pretty ok. :)

saw that clip on love actually on zf blog. make me suddenly feel like watching it. (i realised i nv watch before) or any romance movie... hmmm tmr i watching 007 with haiting. not exactly romantic i guess. both content and company. haha

guess it's time for me to find my way back into dreams.:)

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do

had been studying overnight at airport t3 for past 3 nights. came home at around 6 plus near 7am every morning. 1st day slept till 1130am cos got badminton at 1pm with haiting they all. 2nd day slept till 1pm. today slept till 320pm!! haha getting more and more tired. tonight not going anymore cos tmr is the paper alrdYy!!!! *jitters*

haiting was saying i am very disciplined to go study overnight everyday. haha i am not too sure about that yo... haha it's exactly because i am not disciplined enough that i have to go out and study in the night. at home i will watch tv, use laptop, talk to my sis, sleep, walk to kitchen find sth to eat.... then i will not do anything productive!! haha at first it gets a little lonely... and tend to get a bit emo esp around 4am... haha but i guess i am quite used to it now. enjoying the solitude (time for me to concentrate on studies plus thinking about stuff) , pleased with my productivity every morning i leave the airport. :) but not so pleased with having to spend on mac (need to at least buy sth so i can sit there ) and getting fatter... haha

okay. going to watch my jap drama (galileo). it's very nice! just 1episode. okay maybe 2.lol then should go back to HE191 past yr papers!!!!

jiayou ppl all out there! :)

same thoughts.
slightly different feelings.

it's november! the days of reality and examinations... haha over the weekends, just 2 days into nov I've spent $224.18!!!! lol. thanks to ms jiang haiting. went shopping with her on both days combing ikea courts giant magestores and tamp mall.... got new googles, swimming wear(okay it's ugly and very auntie but i'm shy and conservative u see... haha), 2 t-shirts, earphones and got a free bag!! =) shopping therapy? maybe. haha

tmr my sis a level starts. so i am sort of shooed out of my house. haha this week is mainly tutorials plus some lectures which the lecturers are struggling to finish the syllabus for exams... so i 've on average less than 1.5 hours of lesson everyday yet my mum would prefer i stay in hall so that i won't disturb my sis... lol. maybe it's good thing too since i'll have less distractions from tv and food.i need to mug too... but i'll miss my bed and mama's nice cooking... =(

happy for u. dun worry too much whether it will last but yes u are happy together now that's the main point. =) and u made me see through some stuff. i've decided. i will not wait anymore.

this week is detoxification week.
i need to detoxify my brain mind body and soul
--> brain - get those hk drama out; bring those hydraulics and young's modulus in.
--> mind - get you out; bring exams exams exams in.
--> body - get the fats out; bring those fibres & vitamins in.
--> soul - get the emo me out; bring the mugger in.

this time is for real.
i'll not wait anymore.