late night

whenever i cant slp, it's bad news. if i cant slp and i am online blogging, it almost certainly is a very bad news. it means i am emo, and yes i am now.

just really upset about what's going on between me and my mum these days. she doesnt trust me, doesnt hear me out, doesnt let me explain. and similarly, i get frustrated, argue with her, become impolite and spiteful. and its a vicious cycle. and everything can be a topic of argument.

and i'm deeply affected by the bf. whenever he feels moody, i become moody too. like today. it kind of upset our relationship though not really very serious kind.but recently, he's giving me a lack of insecurity and i dont like that. i dont know how to get across to him, he most probably wont change anyway. but i do realise i really like him and what's more, we just booked our grad trip. i'll have to maintain for at least the next half a yr. just really hope it will last much more longer than that...

fyp screws me up like shit. school's starting. i need to start getting a job. everything is just.. overwhelming. and the recent spell of insomnia is not helping.

there are always good and bad nights. we just hope the morning will be better. goodnight world.