the valentine's day

yes everyone is asking me how's my vday cos its my very first vday being attached.so expectations rose, preparation, creativity.. trying hard to make it memorable for him. well, i think it did in the end, just that in the wrong way. and so did he made it 'memorable' for me. i'm not going to elaborate on the details (pls dont ask me too) afterall its not exactly the best vday i ever had or what.

thought i would be angry. observed myself for a few hours, thinking my emotions might be a little slow. anger still didn't come. upset? maybe a little. disappointment? definitely. decided to ignore him for maybe a few days but almost succumb to msging him this afternoon. momentarily hated myself for that weakness. and i realised:

i can list down easily 7-8 things i dislike about him, all strong and valid, might even be reasons for a good quarrel/breakups for others. and when someone ask me what i like abt him that day, i couldn't answer. because liking someone is not logic. its not math or science. there's no why. you like someone just simply because he is he. and given that you can still love that someone after knowing all his weaknesses, makes love an even more powerful and sacred thing. love is blind, i agree. ppl in love are stupid, maybe. but it's just how things works in the realms of relationships.

i'm still not going to msg him for the next few days. sometimes guys just need to be pushed a little. but dont worry abt me, cos actually deep inside i'm no longer angry/upset (: