bleak

i confessed to my mum i will do very badly this sem. and i'm surprised by her reaction. extermely calm. maybe she sort of guessed since she nv say anything even though she knows i haven't been studying for exams. felt a tiny shock when i realised i got 4 more chapters of heat transfer i nv read b4 with less than 17 hours to the paper. but so tiny... it was gone within 5 min without having any practical effect on me.

to an extent, i dont rmb i am having exams. it feels more like a reflection period. and all i do is stay home, stare blank and think. keep thinking and thinking...still thinking.