simple life

i love the soya bean franchise mr bean a lot. bought before their calendar,keychains, soft toys...not that the food's extremely nice or what, i just find the mr bean v cute and i love the slogan: life's simple pleasures.

i just want a very simple life. doing what i want. being able to fulfil my needs and some of my wants. i'm a rather passive person. an other way of saying is i'm a rather lazy person. not only in terms of studies or work,but i dont like to dig into problems that dont exist or are not important. i dont like to force myself to do stuff when its not mandatory.

i was complaining about tuition. i've a new tutee. i'mafraid of teaching her becos i am not familar with the IP syllabus. and seriously, i dont like tuition. yet i accepted it yes becos its really easy money. not that i am really desperate for money, but it just doesn't seem right to reject a good source of income esp with the impending splurge on canada. but i am not even allowed to compalin about it. at least to my mum.

she thinks i'm a v lazy person who sees money like shit and refuse to earn money when i can cos i frequently reject tuition requests. my friend, whose mum and mine are good friends, is a v proactive person. she has a v clear goal of what she wants and is determined to achieve a successful career in tourism next time. she works while she is studying now at ntu, at hotels, IR, resorts, tourist attractions... she volunteers at any good opporunity that may buff up her resume like the YOG thingy now.. she is v eager to earn money not becos she's v money minded or materialistic (she is a really v v nice person ) becos she knows its important for a good life next time. all this is good news for her, but bad news to me. bcos my mum will start comparing her with me. and obviously, i look like a bum.

i just want a v simple life next time. i will be really satisfied with just a $3K job, enough to buy a flat and start a family tgt with someone i love, maybe go on holidays every 2 years, able to afford certain luxuries (but not all) for my kids and give my parents and grandma allowances. and have free time for some hobbies. thats all. i'm studying bcos i need that degree to get me a job. i really dont care about how lift is created on an aeroplane and what happens in the aircraft engines. i just want a job. i dont need to climb up the coporate ladder, i dont need to be my own boss, and i dont need gucci prada or ferrari.

money is not everything. but it seems to be connected to everything. of course we need money to live. but money cant buy happiness. successful career and excelling in studies dont mean happiness. i just need to be financially independent in life, draw when i want to do, watch dramas when i feel like... why dont my mum understand me?

hai.. i still have 5 more months of tuition. 2 more years of university studies. i need some passion and motivation. i'm not being emo. i'm just tired of being in a fast paced and materialistic society.