CHANGE

the world is constantly changing.. like china suddenly snowing at the wrong time. like ppl always say, change is the only constant.

as i'm about to turn 21, everyone seems to expect a major change from me.. wear dresses, slim down, find boyfriend, be more feminine.. its not that i'm really resisting changes.i mean, deep down inside i want to change. somehow. like be more confident about myself and that will reflect in my dressing and attitude etc. but i wanna change such that there's still a me inside. the original me. the one who likes to be casual, with shorts and slippers and t-shirts, no make-ups, no overly pink/girly stuff.. i want to change in MY way.not under the stresss from others.

anyway gonna have a mini bday celebration with my family at ktv. and that includes my aunts and parents.. i suppose it will be quite a fun one with them singing all the real oldies.. haha. i'm really excited because i really want them to enjoy. i dont want a bday party that is solely for me only. i dont need to be the queen for that day.i want it to be a day where all my loved ones are enjoying as much as i do.. just like they are having their bdays too! cos since my little cousin went bk lux, i nv really spend much time tgt with my whole family..

alcohol makes me tired. had just a tiny weeny bit of baileys at yuntian's today. drinking is an essential skill in life i feel. esp for a girl. not that u have to be v good at it, but at least, make sure u wont knock out so easily. so i do drink once in a while with friends.. but v mild. really v mild kind. like 1 or 2 glasses? haha but its always interesting to learn about and try new drinks..

i almost told u all today.although its alrdy over, but sometimes i just feel the need to get it off my chest. but i guess 3 ppl knowing it alrdy is enough. so from now on, i'll forget about it. promise.